Things Learned.

Things learned: 

1. You are not your ministry. 

You are a child of God.

2. You are not your culture. 

You are a child of God. 

3. You are not your busyness. 

You are a child of God. 

When we realize that all of our identity, our self-worth, and our existence is based on the fact that we are children of God, created in his image, we become more of the people we're meant to be. When we're more of the people we're meant to be, we can love people better. What ministry really boils down to is loving people better, not seeing people as projects to complete.

We are so much more than our patterns of thinking and acting. We are more than our culture. We are human. Our common humanness displays our common neediness for Jesus. When we can get past our cultural awkwardness and see that common humanness life simply gets better and lighter. The pressure's off and we can work together.

As I leave my internship in Mexico behind I am filled with gratefulness that God allowed me to become more of the person he created me to be. When I became this person I had more impact than what I would have, had I still relied on my own strength and resourcefulness. Instead of running around worrying what I am doing for God, I can rest in the fact that Jesus has done everything for me on the cross. I can dance freely with my Creator. 

I am more than my ministry, more than my culture, and more than my busyness.

Mexico has also taught me how to speak Spanish, how to properly eat a taco, how to cross a street without getting ran over, how to take an uber, how to take a bus, how to become a masterchef, how to be really good at charades, how to barter, how to window shop for motorcycles, how to make salsa, how to bucket shower, and many other things.

I am grateful.
I am content.

 The Vargas family and I

Last glimpse of GDL

Tlapa Thoughts

Last week I went to Tlapa, a town of 80,000 indigenous people with the HADIME students from MBmission's Matthew Training Centre.

The goal in the trip was to observe, serve, and learn. The way that this was to be accomplished was simple: live with the locals, and do what they do. 

I listened to 16 year olds talk about taking selfies in their ancient indigenous language. I played the ever-epic camp game "ninja" with some kids. I listened to a mother talk about her husband's tireless work to provide for the family. I watched SpongeBob SquarePants after school on a Tuesday afternoon. I watched as a worried mother took care of her baby with a stomach infection. I sat with a family mourning the loss of their father and friend. 

These are the simple every day things. This is what missions looks like. It's not so much saving the world as it is sitting with the world. Saving people is Jesus' work. Sometimes we're just called to sit, observe, serve, and learn. 

There is so much more that I could say of my experience of Tlapa. I was able to receive a glimpse of the rich cultures that are there. I was able to approach a culture that is totally different from the Latino culture in Guadalajara and see that everyone is human. I'm not an anthropologist. I can't tell you why people resort to illegal activities to provide for their families. I can't even begin to understand the funeral traditions of this culture. I don't know why we had a flat screen TV but no running water. What I can do is approach humbly, give up my biases, see another human as a human and respect that. I can see our mutual need for Christ as our Savour whether rich or poor. 

Please pray for me as my time interning is coming to a close! Only two more weeks and I'll be headed back to Canada! Pray that I would remain focused on the things I have left to accomplish in GDL. 

Pray for the team here as they continue to share God's love with the people they come into contact with every day.

 Funeral procession in Tlapa. Beautiful flowers were taken to the cemetery.* 

View from the cemetery*

 Views of Tlapa*

 Street views. 

 Gorgeous sunset 

Me and my host family. So blessed to have been able to stay and learn from them. 

*Photo Cred: Jen Schmidt

Change of Plans

There's been a change of plans.

At the beginning of February, I went to Ixtapa (on what was supposed to be a two week trip) to see what other missions looked like in Mexico. Upon arrival we met with Sid Reimer, a man who uses his vacation time in Mexico to help a school at a garbage dump. I moved in with my lovely billet family, Christian and Elsa, a pastoral couple in Ixtapa/ Zihuatanejo, and began to see what their ministry is all about. From them, I learned that ministry happens when we die to ourselves and offer our time, our families, and our lives to the One who saved our souls.

The first day we went to the school at the dump, I saw kids who, by comparison to me, have nothing. But I also saw a light in their eyes. And I think that light is Jesus. Where there is darkness, there is hope found in the eyes of children. Upon arrival we found out the main teacher, Olga, had gotten sick the night before and wouldn't be able to come to school for a couple days. Then we found out that she was in the hospital. Doctors told her that because of her health conditions, and the poor conditions at the dump, that it was too dangerous for her to ever go back and teach at the dump again. This left the school which usually has three teachers with only one, because the daughter of Olga, had to leave the school to take care of her Mom. A few doors opened, and I received the opportunity to stay at the school helping until March 10.

After I finished my two week stay with Christian and Elsa, I moved in with Cindy, the other missionary/teacher at the school. From her I've learned that leaving everything for the sake of the Kingdom is worth the sacrifice.

 I've been working at the school every day, helping teaching reading, writing, and math. School starts in the morning with breakfast at 8:00. After breakfast the elementary and high school students go to their classrooms and start their lessons. Recess is at 10:30-11:00 and we finish the day at noon with a Bible story.

I can't even explain how beautiful it's been.

It felt like waking up.

It hasn't been easy, but it's been important. I think the most important things in life are the hardest. Through this experience I've discovered that at our most basic level, all people are the same. We need to have a safe place where we can be loved. Which is really cliché, but it's really true.

We can have all the riches of the world, but if we don't have a safe place where we can go, and if we don't feel loved, we're going to feel a void. We need places where we don't have to live up to expectations. We need places where we can be ok with being ourselves.

Only Jesus is that safe place. Only Jesus is that love. Only Jesus fills that void.

At the end of the day, working at the school at the garbage dump is like working at any other school. Yeah, there might be a couple of different disciplinary issues because of the environmental circumstances that the students grow up in, but the remedy is the same: love and safety.

At first I thought I could love these kids by asking myself "How would I love this person if they were Jesus?"

And that's all happy sunshine and rainbows until you have to pry kids off the wall.

On my own I don't even have the capacity to love a perfect God, how will I ever love an imperfect person?

So the questions becomes not "How would I love this person if they were Jesus?" but, "How does Jesus love this person?" and the answer is found in asking, "How does Jesus love me?" When we understand that we can actually only love because he first loved us, everything changes.

When I look at the ways Jesus loves me, I find joy comes like manna every morning.

When I look at the ways Jesus loves me, I find freedom to do the things that God created me for.

When I look at the ways Jesus loves me, I find the Holy Spirit inside of me waiting for me to let him love people through me.

All I want to do with my life is die to myself and let the Spirit love through me.

Please pray that Olga's health would continue to improve. She is out of the hospital now and is recovering back at home. She plans on teaching the high school students in her home as soon as she is able.
Praise God that He provided new teachers to take on the kindergarten class! He is faithful to provide if we just ask!
Pray for continued health and safety at the dump.
Pray that the Light would shine into the deep darkness that is evident at the dump. Pray that hope would burst through in a crazy way, and that the love of Christ would be deeply experienced by the kids that come to school, and by their families.
Pray for safety as I travel back to Guadalajara on the 10th.

Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace. Where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; where there is sadness, joy. 

O, Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love; For it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are pardoned; it is in dying that we are born again to eternal life. 

-St. Francis of Assisi

 Ocean view from the dive from Zihuatanejo to Ixtapa

 Some of the students at the school with teachers. 

 Angel- One of our Kindergarten students 

Miguelito- One of our Kindergarten students

 DINOS!!

Language Learning

Five months of language learning.

Approximately 108 hours of class. 

171 pages of grammar. 

Over 1,000 vocab flashcards. 

Here's some fun words/ phrases I have learned:

"Bueno como pan"- "[A person/ thing is as] good as bread"

"Dar a luz"- Directly translates to mean "give light" but really means "to give birth"

"Susurarr"- "to whisper" Also, that word to me sounds exactly like a game of hide and seek.

"Bienaventurado"- Looks like it would mean "good adventure" but really means "blessed" and that's close to the same thing. 

"Sacarle la sopa"- Directly translates to "get the soup out" but really means "to interrogate" 

Having never embarked on the huge, important task that language learning is, I've learned a couple of things more than the language itself. 

1. Language learning is hard and will give you a headache. 

You know when you go to the gym and workout really hard and the next day you wake up and are like, "Why does this muscle hurt? Is this even a muscle? I never even knew this muscle existed!" That is what language learning is like. It worked a part of my brain I didn't even knew existed. After a few hours this dull ache occurs that is mind numbing. The cure: coffee. 

2. You can only study so long before you have a slight mental breakdown. 

While memorizing the books of the Bible in Spanish, I broke down after three hours when I forgot the word "Lamentaciones." 

3. The buddy system will save you from having excessive mental exhaustion. 

For me at least, I found it a whole lot easier to not be in class alone. Having another student to learn helped me to know that I was not the only person in the world who didn't understand subjuntivo and pasado anterior. I'm sure you have also found that mutual suffering creates a special bond between people (think of finals week, or when there's no internet), and the same goes for language learning. 

4. Learning a language with a completely different alphabet would be nuts-o. 

Sometimes, you can guess at a word by making an English sounds Spanish, and it kinda works out (but not always). This would be impossible if it was a totally different alphabet. 

5. Failure is part of the learning, mistakes are part of the journey. 

Don't know what a word is? Go for it. Don't know what a person said? Ask them to repeat it. 

It takes humility to do something knowing you might fail, but we should do it anyways. It takes bravery to make a fool of yourself, but we should do it anyways. Because when you do succeed, magic happens. 

I think that when we get to Heaven, we'll all be able to understand each other. I don't know if we'll all speak in tongues, or if we'll just all miraculously understand each other, or what it'll be like, but I'm pretty sure that we'll understand each other. It's heartbreaking and lonely wanting to say something, but not being able to, or wanting to understand someone and not being able to. One day, every tongue, tribe and nation will be able to talk about how their hearts feel, and what makes their soul sing, and we'll be able to understand it. I can't wait for that day. 

Please continue to pray for the ministries that are happening here. A new Bible study has sprung up seemingly over night and it is exciting to see that God is working! God brings people to himself in himself in really remarkable ways and it's a privilege to be a part of it. 

Please pray for the new intern, Jesse, and I as we will be going to Ixtapa for the next two weeks and helping with a garbage dump ministry, a seniors home, and churches there. Pray for safety and that we will be able to minister where needed. 

Please pray that in everything, we would have the love of Christ pouring out of us. 

If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels,

 but do not have love, 

I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 

1 Corinthians 13:1

Thanks for praying. Prayer changes everything. 

{Side Note: I've eaten every taco on the menu at this taco truck}

1,000ish vocab cards.

Where are you?

This past weekend one of our missionaries, Diane, celebrated her 50th birthday party. She threw an unusual birthday party as she had her teachers from her exercise dance classes at the gym lead some sessions and we played street hockey. This unique party was in the hopes that she could bring together people from many different parts of her life and celebrate her 50 years God has blessed her with, and also bless others and show God's love.

I think of a lot of ministry has to do with seeing where people are, meeting them there, and sharing Jesus with them. Here, people love parties, the bigger the better. If that's where the people are, that's where we need to be too.

Here, we go to breakfasts and coffees with people, we bike with people, we go to the gym with people, we hang out with the Moms after school. It's really not that complicated: See where people are, go there, and love them like Jesus does.

It's important to be in the world, but not of it.

What does this actually mean? Does this mean that we imitate the culture around us but just Christianising it? Does this mean that we need to go and create a completely separate Christian-culture? Does this mean that we simply deal with the way the world is without actually diving into the mess?

I'm not sure what this means.
But I know that Jesus dove into the mess.
And I know that Jesus met us here, on earth, where we're at.

So if Jesus dove into the mess, what's keeping us from diving into it?

Are we content with our Christian circles? Are we content with always being fed, and never feeding anyone else?

Christmas was a couple of weeks ago and I think it's important that we keep marvelling at the story. That God, sent Jesus not to take over the government, but to challenge it. Not to affirm the self-righteous, but to take the broken, the rejected, and the sinful by the hand and bring them into His kingdom.

We weren't perfect when Jesus came to us.
He came to us when we were still in our stench.
Jesus still does that.
He meets us where we're at.
So it's going to be a messy life.
And that's ok.

Please pray for our ministry as we enter into this new year. It's an exciting time and I feel like big, exciting, unexpected things are going to happen. Please pray for creativity, endurance, and the joy of the Lord in our every day work. Pray that the gospel would resonate with people deeply, and shake them to the core.

Having fun at Diane's birthday party! 

Nativity scene outside of the coto (housing complex)

I also had the amazing opportunity to go to Mexico City and spend Christmas with my host family and their relatives! Here are some pictures from that trip.